Juan Thing Remains

Months have passed and here I am, trying to make sense of it all. But hey, hooray for existing! This is a desperate move for telling myself I did a good job for staying sane. This is getting either quite a bit awkward or bland but c'mon, give this guy a break! Let alone break a leg. This list is another form of self expression (just like for the past 13 entries, for the past 7 years & cringey wordplays) where I share some of the songs that might have been an indication of a coming of age, randomness, striking melodies, angst and/or passion. Well, this is about to sound like ''this meeting could've been an e-mail" but guess what, this songlist could've been a Spotify playlist. Hope that everyone is safe and taking a break in any means whichever way they deserve. Or don't deserve now but later will do. ____________________________________________________________________________ 1. Coming of Age - Blondes 2. Always Silver - Kainalu 3. Vertigo - Jump, Littl...

A tale of distraction. Like the pandemic in the system itself, I have uncovered a lot of irregularities in my situation and life. I guess it's the same for everybody else. The constant worrying and mental repercussions (which they deemed inevitable) has costed me a lot of energy and resources and the way I cope up has been either creative or destructive. Balancing the gratitude and the feeling of despair is tiring. I began to despise the term "New Normal" because it falls down on two polar opposites. Right now, it's about to feel chaotic due of the changes applied on the community quarantine guidelines. Thinking about it brings my inner problematic self to argue with myself. One voice telling me to be empathetic and be angry on how the things are turning out while the other one pursues surviving and saving my sanity and not trying to think about it. I guess it's in our nature to think about things. So in this entry,  I just compiled the songs I used to l...

Photo by  Andrea Turner  from  Pexels I've been trying to scratch my itch to place this entry on the web since four months ago when I had too much on my plate. Too much on my plate: - disorganized tasks - problems while handling other problems (after problems) - daunting season of "hey, y r u still single?" - poor budgeting skills with poor life decisions - not enough sleep - *too much on my plate (get it?) I think as if every young adult in my country is experiencing the same - with even more struggles and varying intensities. That's why somehow, we tend to be more reflective at times of reconciliation with stress and trouble. We search across our physical and digital environment and we depend on the feel-good elements we can hold on to. That's why I feel relieved when I see wholesome news, in any form (words, images, videos and even memes) and made me think on possibly making a slightest of impact just by sharing, reacting and acting on...

Wanna hear a sick joke? You made it halfway through 2019!  As a chicken soup for the soul (at least for me), good songs are getting harder and harder to find these days. That harsh reality is truly inevitable with all the complexity, issues, cultural shift and all. However, from the moment I started the "On Track" series several years back until now, I feel a sense of fulfilment. Who would've thought that this blog (unfiltered and transparent window of my embarrassing ideas) will still exist after my personal vegetative state. AKA the burnout. For me, to hear the songs I used to listen reminds me of the glories and miseries of life. So remarkable that it gives me a sense of analysis about the timelines and the pathways I've chosen along the way. I feel like it's always the same for all of us, human, being. So, I guess it's just the way it has to be. 🎧  Enjoy!!!  ______________________________________________ 1. Electric Love - Børns ...

Another entry for the late 2018 period. These songs made my enthusiasm intact in many instances and aspects and they (the artists and my personified earphones) are my companions on repeat for the timeline.  Here's to more music for 2019!!! (as usual - not much of a review sort of thing) Photo by icon0.com from Pexels 1. Half Moon Run - Hands In The Garden 2. Kodaline - Head Held High 3. Boy Pablo - Losing You 4. Hippo Campus - Bambi 5. Half Moon Run - I Can't Figure Out What's Going On 6. Billie Eilish - Come Out and Play 7. Half Alive - Still Feel 8. Young The Giant - Superposition 9. Billie Eilish - Bellyache 10. Joji - Slow Dancing in the Dark 11. Young The Giant - Simplify 12. Juan Karlos - Buwan 13.  Rex Orange County - Never Enough _______________________________________________________________________________ What are "On Track" entries? - ...

Have you ever felt too overwhelmed with everything that the only thing you want to do is pause ? While I wait and contemplate things on a railway, airport terminals, bus stops and streetlights, sometimes I imagine a scenario about pausing the clocks ticking, stop the sun from rising and setting and freeze each people passing. I just take delight at the mere thought of it. Catching up with the world and being ahead of the plan. Each.Passing.Second. What a concept. Ever since I had the glimpse of adult life, I think I’m still stuck with the same loop. But then, I saw this random tweet from @LakenRiley1 : “God is not in a hurry. You are. It’s why you are tired. It’s why you are anxious, and stressed, and disappointed. Trust that what was meant to be yours, will be yours.” https://www.pexels.com/@stasknop Too much for the drama. Here's to more music suggestion :) Here’s my list. Thanks to the people who helped me find these. Search fo...

It has been 7 months since I added an entry for the 'On Track' playlist series. Lately I have been thinking about the pressures in life and how I am consumed by it. I always tend to focus on the volume of my responsibilities and how these affect me as an inexperienced young adult. However, I always set my mind to the fact that God gave me these challenges because He made us able. Since then, I level up faster than I even notice. Earlier than I acknowledge. Remember when we used to play computer games with easier early game and then gets insane on the latter part? I feel like I jump-started and skipped a level or two. The span of the creation of this entry helped me to gather melodies, instruments and beats at random places and 'dimensions' and learned to relish each second of plays. It helped me enjoy every tick of the travel (whatsoever) clock. Hope someone who will play this list find solace/feels in all forms, like I did. Well, her...

Verse I: Ito ang oras na Lingon sa bintana Tingin sa kawalan Bulong sa karimlan Umusad ang lahat Hindi pa rin humupa ang mga hikbi Hindi nalilingid Chorus: Kung muling ibabalik ang mga alaala Siguro may ngiti pa rin Pagbibigyang pansin mga nasayang na tugon Tingin sa kawalan Hihilom din ang nagdaan Verse II: Hindi maintindihan Mga araw at buwan Hindi tatalikdan Kung nasaan ka man Umusad ang lahat Hindi pa rin humupa ang mga hikbi Hindi nalilingid Chorus: Kung muling ibabalik ang mga alaala Siguro may ngiti pa rin Pagbibigyang pansin mga nasayang na tugon Tingin sa kawalan Hihilom din ang nagdaan Bridge: Ala-alang nagdugtong Sa kahapong di na uusbong Kapalit ng bukas na lulong Panatag nang mga bulong

(Photo by Miguel Á. Padriñán from Pexels https://www.pexels.com/photo/black-record-vinyl-167092/) Many things happened. I gained a job. I travel a lot. I've lost a loved one. Too much has changed in this life. Feels like a paradigm shift. My world felt numb as it turns hastily. I became taciturn -- my complete opposite. Somehow, the beat and all the sound remains. I still managed to do this entry in spite of all endeavors. --- This entry is 'I type - you search' list. Enjoy! 1. Caro - Closet Lunatic 2. Club Kuru - Giving In 3. UDD - Unti-unti 4. Day Wave - Wasting Time 5. Blind Pilot - 3 Rounds and a Sound 6. Cage The Elephant - Trouble 7. Foster The People - Ruby 8. RAC - I Still Wanna Know 9. Ben&Ben - Kathang Isip 10. The Killers - Heart of a Girl 11. Majical Cloudz - Downtown 12. Shadowgraphs - Countryside 13. Harbour - With Love 14. CRUISR - All Over 15. Muse - Feeling Good 16. Kings & Culprits - Greed 17....

The most epoch-making transition in life is when you search for a job after you get a degree, which gave me the opportunity to make another entry of "eargasmics". Eargasmix! ha. These secular songs made a good travelling, sleeping, spending-spare-time companion at this point in time when I get so unsure of what really lies ahead after several interviews and summer endeavors. *breathes out* That's why they ended up being in my On Track series. wallpaperscraft.com Here it is, (Format: Title - Artist) 1. Tessellate - alt-J 2. Ruby - Foster The People 3. With Love - Harbour 4. Trouble - Cage The Elephant 5. Hard Times - Paramore 6. Exit Music (For a film) - Radiohead 7. Fake Plastic Trees - Radiohead 8. South - Hippo Campus 9. Violet - Hippo Campus 10. Suicide Saturday - Hippo Campus 11. My Mind - Yebba (Sofar NY) 12. Starman - David Bowie 13. Talk About - Dear and the Headlights 14. Roll the Bones - Shakey Graves (Au...

This entry is the laziest. I type, you search. Here it is and support real music makers! 1. Autotelic - Laro 2. Same Ground - Bluff Caller 3. The Lumineers - Ophelia 4. The Wrecks - Favorite Liar 5. Young The Giant - Something to Believe In 6. Swimming Tapes - Set The Fire 7. Tipling Rock - Play it Cool 8. She's Only Sixteen - Whatever That Was 9. HONNE- Warm on a Cold Night 10. HONNE - Woman 11. Autotelic - Gising 12. Quest - Walang Hanggan 13. Mac DeMarco - It's Gonna be Lonely (Prince Cover) 14. BP Valenzuela - Steady 15. Peryodiko - Tayo Lang ang May Alam  16. SUD - Sila 17. Half Moon Run - Nerve 18. Tame Impala - Yes, I'm Changing 19. Jensen and the Flips - Is This Love 20. Panic at the Disco - Death of a Bachelor 21. Bruno Mars - That's What I Like 22. Twenty One Pilots - Lane Boy 23. Twenty One Pilots - Truce 24. Alt-J - Breezeblocks 25. Alvvays - Adult Diversion 26. Augustana - Boston 27. LANY - IL...

Yes. Got time with my hands aaaand it is limited. Life's good. *note the sarcasm my friend. I want you to feel what I felt without commentary so judgement will be made after you listen to it. At tinatamad ako. Here's the list :) 1. Seafret - Oceans https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=aqsL0QQaSP4 2. Allen Stone - Bed I Made https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=Ub7IcarC4TU 3. The Strokes - Someday https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=knU9gRUWCno 4. The Jakes (Young the Giant) - Take Me Home https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=dNwrBCzV-Vc 5. Bryan John Appleby - Costanoan Bones https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=lj2CnGW7b3A 6. Grimes - Oblivion https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=JtH68PJIQLE 7. Seafret - Atlantis https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=gVAy3IZiL0s 8. Seafret - Be There https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=8INOzcCGBzY 9. Kodaline - Love Will Set You Free https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=YZCmCxB0x9M 10. Sia - Bird Set Fr...